Earth No More

earth's disasters
come together on our mother's earth
what have we done?
we should not disturb the balance
land should be used respectfully
join together as one lovingly
The earth has been raped badly,
continuously
hilariously
It ain't easy
we have to do something urgently
no no.. no more scientific developments
no no... no more illegal logging
oh please stop dispose of litter
God sees all that you do
don't you hear her cries?
look at nature everything is so perfect
our earth is dying , she is polluted
i can feel her pain 
she predicted destruction
see her wither like flowers 
no power....
she is holding out for the day
when all the clouds have blown away

(by; Tina Minarni Cusaybha)
***

Living Joyfully Baby

come baby
come closer to me
i wanna dance together
lets celebrate life with joyously
playfully
totally
dance baby dance
don't be shy
dance with the flowers
play on the beach
just like small children
playing cherfully , joyfully
collecting seashells
making palaces
but no purpose
sing baby sing
sing with me
hear the symphony
follow the rhythm
living life as music
as you know the lyrics
look at the stars 
talk to them
have discussion to them
look how sparkling and shining
live joyously
aesthetically

(by; tina minarni cusaybha)

In a Dream

my dreams
your dreams
everyone dreams
a series of images
events
and feelings
am i dreaming or is it real
i dream about you
i dream about to go
everyone sleeps everyone has dreams
only dreams can happen
whenever you become awakened
and enlightentened
it will always be in a dream

(by.tina minarni cusaybha)

What are Post Pages?

What are Post Pages?

Mamamia I am Insomnia

Mamamia I am Insomnia

tick tock tick tock
one a clock, two a clock, three a clock ...
tick tock ticking
dark circle under my eyes
look like a ghost
sleeplessness again tonite
i cannot hide
white snow pillow and mattras
with soft blanket like silk
i am at a higher risk
so fatigue
I close my eyes
but my mind wander around
abandoned minds
depression might be the reason
but my heart is not broken
tick tock tick tock
four a clock, five a clock, six a clock ...
aarghh...

(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

In This Love

In This Love

I'm all alone tonite
The nite so dark even with the light

I've lost many things in life
I've lost my confidence that i cannot hide

BUT I DO BELIEVE IN YOU MY MASTER

Whatever i believe is meant to be
It surely my destiny

Every happiness is a present
My long dress stitch with ribbon
I'm so lucky to be reborn

My feeling for you grow each day
I dunno why
The sparkle in my eye
Explain why

My love for you is deep and true
No matter what you do
I always Love You

(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

Fly Away

Fly Away 

I wish i could fly to the sky so very high
just like a black jet fly
oh why
I know i've got to get away
through this way

but why
through which way
why are you so far away
please don't kiss me good bye

yeaaa..yeaaa..yeaaa..

O Lordy,
i dunno why
when a man loves a woman..he becomes shy

hey..a wise Mom say
Love is expansion not contraction
this love is attachment

Love is a funny way
don't ask me why

"God is Love, Live in Love"
Don't argue why

(by. tina minarni cusaybha) ***

Fly Away (France version)

Fly Away

Je voudrais pouvoir voler dans le ciel très élevé
tout comme une mouche noir jet
oh pourquoi
Je sais que je dois sortir

mais pourquoi
par la manière dont
pourquoi êtes-vous si loin
s'il vous plaît ne pas kiss me good bye

yeaaa .. yeaaa .. .. yeaaa

O Seigneur,
Je sais pas pourquoi
quand un homme aime une femme, il devient timide ..

hey .. sage Mom dire
L'amour est pas contraction expansion
cet amour est l'attachement

L'amour est une drôle de façon
ne me demandez pas pourquoi

"Dieu est Amour, Live in Love"
Ne discutez pas pourquoi
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

MISTY FEELING

MISTY FEELING

I WOKE UP THIS MORNING
I COULD FEEL HIS COMING
ALL THE HAPPINESS ROLLING
FROM THIS MISTY FEELING

CANNOT BELIEVE HE IS COMING
OH GOSH I MUST BE DREAMING
I CAN SEE HIS BEAUTIFUL EYES SPARKLING

LEMME WHISPER IN YOUR EAR:I'M FALLING INTO YOUR LOVE
FALLING INTO YOUR LOVE

I WAS NOT LOOKING ANY OTHER THING
U ARE THE ONE THAT I'M DREAMING
I KEEP WALKING AND FOLLOWING
THIS MISTY FEELING
I KNOW THIS IS GROWING


I HAVE BEEN WAITING FOR SO LONG
THAT I FINALLY FOUND THE LOVE SO STRONG
oOOOOOOOoooo ......... AM I WRONG ?
KEEP ON MOVING
COZ I KNOW I VE FALLEN FOR YOU FOR SO LONG

LEMME WHISPER IN YOUR EAR: I'M FALLING INTO YOUR LOVE
FALLING INTO YOUR LOVE

JOY OF MY SOUL, JOY OF MY HEART
YOU HAVE GIVEN LOVE FROM THE VERY START
I HOPE THIS WON'T APART
GURUJI I LOVE YOU SO MUUUUUUUCH
(by. tina minarni cusaybha) ***

The Darkest Mask

The Darkest Mask

Dark... hollow.. sorrow
That all who feels its cloudy mourning
Cover in fear, insecure and frozen roar
Anger in the face, hatred in the heart

A wolf with satin dress bringing the needle in the cheese
Lips murmuring becoming holly with their beliefs
Making a clean kill with the bombing in the green fields
It was just quick mess inhuman speed

Beyond the black magic shadow i see the demons grins
coz i'm a such believer i couldn't leave her

I have seen the dark but now i see the darkest side
The look in your eyes are so blue
We suffer together as we were the true meal for the ignorance
Drain ...in the mask of lie

Now we are in the center ring
I cannot see the running river
what i found was en empty shell
You know what you need in that kinda of live?
It's not there
It never was
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

*** 

I'm Sorry

I'm Sorry

I'm deeply sorry
I really am
The pain I feel inside is hard to explain
I don’t know why it happens again

I heard people screaming, crying hilariously
Running around like crazy
Trying to save their owned life in the crowd

No animals kill another
He had become a monster
Hang on...he is not a monster either
But a true killer

What I have done wrong?
He has progress so much
In so many ways without any control
As he is controlled by a remote control
Blast …… in the space

I'm sorry for being bad host to foreigners
I'm sorry to say my prayers is more important then visiting the victims
I'm sorry for allowing our children to be brainwashed with the violence
I’m deeply sorry
I really am

I'm sorry for the pain that I caused
I'm sorry for the shock that you got
I'm sorry for making you worry so much
I'm sorry for having no tolerance
I'm deeply sorry
I really am
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

SO LONG CIGGY

SO LONG CIGGY

i have been going too far
for so long
that i belong

huff ..huff ahhh i see the smoke goes
puff ... puff mmm the nicotine blows

I light the ciggy
I inhales the smoke
I splutter,

huff ..huff.. and i coughed, my face turned to red
dizzy ...purple and blur

ciggy used to be my companion for so long
how can i quit
no no ...
i throw one
but another one comes by

huff ..huff ... huff ...and i coughed, my face turned to red
dizzy ...purple and blur

what i have done for so long
where is the satisfaction
I never get any
my lungs, my heart, my whole body
dying like crazy
they can't accept any more

I light up again
Ah.. all the sensation has gone
huff ..huff..
and i puff..
and i braaaff
like a mad Dracula in the grave

so long ciggy
I don't need you anymore
as I love myself more
(by. tina minarni cusaybha) 

***  

My Little Digger

My Little Digger

White long hair terrier
He is DongHyun
dig here... dig there.. Aaah everywhere...

hey guys look at me!
wraaff..wraaff... means:
"i am always lovely
my poni looks so funny
my pink nose makes me so shiny"

then he runs and dig again...
hey
"i love to run and walk to the beach
i'm just plain happy!"

Wraff..wraaaff.. his tail wage

"my life is full with happiness and joy
i just can't wait to get a new toy"

i dig here .. run there ... and dig again
"i'm full of love and affection
bring joy and happiness
never complain in facing live
I live without regret
Loves with no bounds"

why human being never learn from me?

wraafff... wraaaff... run here ...run there.. keep digging
ahaaaaa.. i know something
hush... i'm whispering into your ear......
"learn respect and getting along
feel joy and pleasures
don't underestimate me
because I'm just a dog

maybe i know how to love more
and be very loyal
give kindness and unlimited love
i can show you how"
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

*** 

RUNNING

RUNNING

I RUN , AND I RUN , AND I RUN AGAIN
TO THE EAST, TO THE WEST, TO THE SOUTH, TO THE NORTH

I RUN , AND I RUN , AND I RUN AGAIN
I'M GETTING TIRED AND ODD

I'M FRIGHTENED , RESTLESS, AND CARELESS
I DON'T KNOW WHAT TO DO AS I GET LOST IN THE JUNGLE ICE
SO

I RUN , AND I RUN, AND I RUN AGAIN
JUST RUN
AND RUN

I'M RUNNING AWAY FROM ALL OF MY FEARS
FROM ALL OF THE MISERY AND THE PAIN IN THE PAST
I KEEP RUNNING
I GET TIRED WHAT AM I LOOKING FOR IN THIS LIFE

SO I RUN AND I RUN AND I RUN AGAIN
UNTIL FINALLY I FIND WHAT LIFE REALLY IS
OH MAYBE IN THERE
SO I RUN THERE
OH MAYBE DOWN THERE
EVERYWHERE
ALL OVER THE WORLD
I KEEP RUNNING AND I WILL ALWAYS RUN

BUT I FIND NOTHING
SO I RUN , AND I RUN AND I RUN AGAIN
ONLY EMPTINESS THAT I CAN FIND
(by. tina minarni cusaybha) ***

I'M a PRETTY GOD

I'M a PRETTY GOD

i was God
probably

but hey i reborn again
so here i'm
meeting you again
i am God
though i look a bit odd

but again
i'm still wondering
am i really God?
who am i ?

what kind of God with contact lens
and skinny body
i run to the bathroom
i look at my face
Ahh
i'm a pretty God

but then again
i saw another God
hey there
and here
ahh everywhere
Oh we're all God

i keep looking
i'm still wondering
mmmm am i really God?
who the hell i really am

i'm goddess with no mind
why do i have to think about God
as God is me
that's all i can see
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

The Heart of Symbols

The Heart of Symbols

this world is too full of talk
but i like to walk

this world is too full of kids to whom sleeping and snoring
and all these little munchies are everything

some people say mine is great
but some say not
then they become ground

mine is stronger
no no no..mine is more elegant
nonsense ....none of us ...

get rid of these childish notions
coz that's not the answers

the church, as it is, stands for a symbol
and also the mosque and so forth

this universe is also a symbol
so what are you arguing for

temples
churches
mosques
candles
bells
and all holly symbols
are great !!!

they really helpful to growing the seeds of spirituality
but thus far
and no farther
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

I am GREAT as I am

I am GREAT as I am 

my childhood was in misery
but i don't need to be sorry
just so you can feel me
so u can get the real me

no river's too wide for me to rift by
i just need to have strong faith and no cry
as i know i can reach the cloud up in the sky
so there's no fry

I have been up and down
I have been in the very low ground
i have been pushed around
all of the fears and hatred not gone

I dont have to be this way
and i dont know why

watchu duin to me ?
watchu have done to me?

i am GREAT as i am
i am GREAT as i am
i can only be me as a GREAT me
this is me

i'm still standing strong
i'm still holding on
Nothing can bring me down,
coz i know all the queens deserve the crown!
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

True Love

True Love

sex
love
compassion
which one are you

when a man loves a woman
a wise mom says
love is expansion, not contraction
this relationship attachments not love

love and sex
they both are business relationship

true love is only for the divine
O Lord! i see You in everything
as Budha, as Mohammad, as Jesus, as Khrisna
they all one since lord is real

i love you is human
to love divinity is spiritual
god is love
live in love
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

*** 

I'm Originally from My Mom

I'm Originally from My Mom 

what's your name
then i answer confidently 'tina'
where are you from
then suddenly i get confused, one thing for sure
i'm from my mom- Ibu Pertiwi

i'm from the richest spices that taste so delicious
for many seasons

i'm from the tropical island
where all the fruit can be found
in our beautiful garden
so we can make juice in the kitchen

and the varied underwater creatures in the ocean
touching souls we unite our mind for my attention
this is true heavens

Mom always pray for me
and she says, " I always give you love , peace and harmony"
can you feel my pray and see
i wonder if you really know that i'm free

to know You is to love You
You have given me so much love and what i want is You

i thank You
but i have not much to give You
i hope you knew
that I Love You too
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

I Wish I Knew

I Wish I Knew

if i were a farmer
i will pick cows instead of tiger
coz i know you are heavier
even tamer

your body oh so white
i dunno whether your brain is bright
but you're full of light

O cows
i love the way you eat the grass
you give me milk so i can run fast
you give me cream so i can eat pies
you give meat so they feel the skies

Your life is full of compassion
always give and never ask in return
that's what i reckon

i wonder if you had any dreams
so i can make it come true
it's all for you
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

T.I.N.A

T.I.N.A
my Mom named me tina
(TI : TIdak - NA : NAlar)
in english means NO MIND
WoW ..i hope that's true
that i have no mind
coz i know that i'm blind

O o ... it's dark in here ..O ..ooo how can i see the sun
Aaaaah....i live all alone
always run here , go there and travel so far but no fear
i have a dog and a cell phone
how life goes on

Horayyyyyy ... how beautiful life , happy and glee
joeppieeeeeeee.....
i love to swim and run with the wind ...swwiiiiiiiinnnnnnnnggggg.... Ahhh so light
i love to go to the park to hear the bark
mm mmm i hope don't strike

tick ..tock..tick..tock.... i heard the clock
struck one
struck two
struck three
stoooooooooopppppp
i've got dizzy from this whiskey
oh no ..that's so sneezey

HoRaaaayyy... how beautiful life, happy and glee
see how i fly
how i shy
but i won't fray
as i life for living
at the present moment
of my own
happy again and again
will never end
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

Rolling Up & Down

Rolling Up & Down

Roll over roll over
Life is a circle
Rolling one to another
together
Oh there's some here and the rest are there
some may see peace some may not ..who's dare

Loneliness, togetherness, darkness, emptiness
Life is all about choices
It's all up to you to make it through these lines
Hear only and listen only to your heart
coz i know your smart
Roll over roll over
it is not over
listen to the river
listen to the birds
look at the sky
look at the stars
but hear and listen only to your heart
you will see the right one
yes the right one
and life would be fine
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

I THANK YOU

I THANK YOU

I, tina
Thank you for everything that You have given me
How my life has changed , i feel so blessed
All because of You Sir
Now i can walk through the path
Knowing that it is very light
Yet your guidance is needed
Of my unfinished journey
U are my Master, my Mother, my everything. I thank YOU

once again
I THANK YOU and I LOVE U 

 *

Dedicated to Anand Krishna 
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

FEAR Part II

FEAR Part II

O... i don't have enough money
Oo .....my hair is getting gray
Ooo ....i don't have a house
Oooo....i live alone
Ooooo....i'm getting old
Oooooo.... AAAAAAAAhhhhhhhh so many OOoooo
that's my Fear
i fear everyday
it takes me away
everyone in fear
everyone in danger
but i don't want to be a looser
coz i know fear is near
fear is here
fear is such a leech
it sucks your confidence
it makes you drowning in drought
it is just like a cancer in your body
i fear everyday
it takes me away
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

I;m happy as i am

I;m Happy as I am

i'm happy as i am, you better trust
i can just eat any kinds of foods beside meats coz i'm a veg
i don't have to worry about my weight coz anything i eat i remain slim
i always drink full cream milk, and eat bread with cottage cheese for my breakfast
i can go wherever i want to - coz i am a special single girl
yes i'm happy as i am

i don't spend most of my time in saloon
only for pedicure manicure like any other girls
i don't even spend more time to buy sexy nice clothes and fixing hair
i just don't care

i'm just different not like any other girls
yes, i'm very glad
i don't like to talk much beside making jokes and doing silly stuffs
i'm easy going and like traveling
i'm free as a girl
i'm a free thinker
i'm a free soul
i'm very happy as i am
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

I Love My Country

I Love My Country

i love my country
for living in love peace and harmony
full of care
we have no time to glare

full of glance happy to dance
hand in hand
together we stand

I love my country
for living in love peace and harmony
full of joy
not a toy
O Boy

i live in the garden of love
blue ocean with its creatures
rich of source natures
the foods and its cultures
Ah so magnificent

i am always ready to protect You
both light and shadow
wide and narrow
even sorrow
O the flower of life
I love You to the rest of my live
(by. tina minarni cusaybha) 

***

Welcome Ramadan

Welcome Ramadan

knock knock knock
i heard a knock on my door
i was not really sure as that nite was quite late
i peaked through the window
Ahhaaaaaa...
i know you
i know you
i know you
yes it's you
welcome
marhaban ya Ramadhan
you are my special guest
no one cannot guess
i know that ur the best
i welcome you and accept you fully in my hands
fully joy , happy and glee thoroughly
Throughout this month i repent
i have been waiting for this sacred month
Ramadan as a gift to mankind
i wish my soul can be sharpen to continue my life journey to Divine
it aint easy to meet Thee
i keep on walking through this journey
worship Thee
to the naked eye

Allahu Akbar
Allahu Akbar
Allahu Akbar

Only your name that i can say
to the rest of the day
please welcome
Marhaban Ya Ramadhan
full of love, joy and fun
(by. tina minarni cusaybha) 
***

Ants Never End

Ants Never End

one two three joeepiiieeeeeeee
one two three joepiiieeeeeee
they keep walking in line dunno what they doing
looking for food with nothing
but they keep trying
starting in early morning
oughh...ants , i know you're working
Ahaaaaaaaaa.....
one two three joeepiiieeeeee
one two three joeepiiieeeeeeee
i think they're really good
working everyday
in what way
hmmm...
very solid
hmmm
greedy as well
collecting food everywhere
they have been bricking the wall
walking marching following their master in front
no confront
i learn from ants
following master in one vision
with no confusion
all for one
one for all
one two three joeepiiiee
one two three joeepiiiee
see yah
i laugh 
(by. tina minarni cusaybha)

***

Oh Boy .. Bee!

Oh Boy .. Bee!

i woke up in the morning took my dog out for walk
i saw bees laughing giggling flying around on the flowers
for hours
i keep watching 'em
buuuzzzzzzzzzzzz
buuuuzzzzzzzzzzzzzzzz
with their friends
on the flowers everywhere
the next day i go there just to see bees
but i cannot find any
only a little buzzzz that i can see
no more honeybees
i just find an empty boxes
where are the colonies
they all vanish
we have lost up the hives
buuuzzzzzzzzzzz
buuuuuuuuzzzzzzzzzzzzz
i miss the sounds
i miss honeybees
we'll miss something in the circle
no bees no honey
no bees no pollination
where there is very important
It's a total mystery to me
where they're going and why they're leaving
ohh boy...what are you doing
sitting n doing nothing
look ! they are disappearing 

(by; tina minarni cusaybha)

***

Earthquake in the Cake

Earthquake in the Cake

boom bang
people screamed
people panic
boom bang
boys run, girls hide
all the people skipped and jumped
people had been killed many got wounded
It was like being in a toy where you were swayed around
everything was ruined on the ground
no one came
It's a crying shame
Alas! I lost my only room
just like a bride with no groom
boom bang
mother nature you're poisoned by your owned children
men has damaged and raped your essence
there is no heal to make you feel
Thee lying motionless, voiceless can't be measures
angels guardian whispering at my ear
it's time to take a turn
each act give impact
please don't look back
my soul , my prayers and my songs
asking Thee to guide me
my selfishness won't remain longer
that makes my heavy fingers
won't go together 

(by; tina minarni cusaybha)

*** 

Look at My Farm

Look at My Farm

what a nice farm
there are cows, horses, chickens, ducks, sheep, goats etc
they all happy living together
Oh what a fun!
under the sun ..
never on the run
no hatred , no anger , there were none!
we all have so much fun
Look that's on top is the mother hen
down there are little calf eat hay all day
Hey...
come back
oughhh too late
the horses would love to go
hellooooo
the water splash on the ground
they were tiring but satisfying
keep on working for something
mysterious living
miss farmer was thinking
she had to sell chickens to the market
all around the island
oughhh they all gonna die and become fried chicken
hang on
i feed you to get the eggs not for the meat
oh Nooo...
wait the minute sir! miss farmer shouted
sorry i change my mind
no more killing
on my animals farming
(by; tina minarni cusaybha)

***

I Miss Him

I Miss Him

i know i am too noisy on facebook sometimes
blah , blah , blah and all of the stuffs
ha ha ha whuahahha,,,,
but i never get enough
i keep on giggling laughing
blah blah blah
ha ha ha
i am totally insane
until one day
i go blah blah blah
ha ha ha ha
hah???
yaaah :(
i cry
(whoopz)
there is something missing in my life
I miss Him so badly
i hope one day i can meet Him again
so i have no more pain

(by; tina minarni cusaybha) ***

SAMBAL PEDAS / Hot Chilli Sambal

SAMBAL PEDAS / Hot Chilli Sambal

sweet, sour, salty, or hot

a certain taste of food in a bottle of chili pot

it tastes so hot in your mouth

in the greatness of food

here i pick sambal sauce

it still ain't nuthin' if it ain't hot

that's what i've got

see my chili

lets taste

don't waste

try it once

eat with tempe and i carried a kettle of hot tea

who wants to drink together with me

so get ready

in the valley

This be heaven

or romance

it ain't nuthin' but Hot Chili Sambal

for all

(by; tina minarni cusaybha)

***

My Fear

my fear

when i'm alone i looked at myself into the mirror
i stared to the stars in the dark i clutch my bear

i keep saying to my heart 'no more fear and it will disappear'
but my heart full of fear, my eyes full of tears
yet i move on
im afraid of others opinion
im not yet a lion.

i feel so alone in this crowded world
i feel sick but my health is excellent
i sit in an old chair playing my guitar with a broken melody
it's all suffering

im all alone tonite
a candle slowly melts

sitting in the dark typing
and see my dog is sleeping

i am the cause of whatsoever is happening to me.
this world is just a mirror that i never wonder
accepting fear is insightful
and now i feel more grateful
(by; tina minarni cusaybha) ***